Revelations

Wow, that desire to text Envy is gone,
I used to crave for her to forgive me,
to spend time with her,
to talk to her,
and it's gone,
I mean it would be nice to be friends,
but it's not like i'll die without her,
I mean yeah I said something really shitty,
and it made me want to die,
I felt so fuckin bad,
i've apologized dozens of times,
but after fighting with Obie,
that huge urge is gone,
I'm fine with her deciding to not forgive me,
it sucks,
but i'm not tearing myself apart about it anymore,
it's fuckin amazing!