Blood stained walls

I kicked a cup in the apartment today,
after a screaming match with alicia,
I've never come so close to hitting someone in my life,
in that way at least,
so instead i hit myself,
i punched the walls,
and left bloody smears all over that spot,
after kicking a cup into the wall,
i left a chunk of wall missing,
hopefully no one notices,
I cleaned up the blood,
but now i'm bleeding through my bandages,
i don't even know anymore,
who is this person I'm becoming,
I don't recognize myself anymore.

A new chapter begins

So much has happened lately.
So much decieving,
lying,
cheating,
crying,
cutting,
suicide threats,
screaming,
just so much drama,
and bullshit,
and i'm done,
I may have been wrong for parts,
but that doesn't excuse how she's acted,
and i'm taking control,
I moved out,
got away,
am talking to people again,
am so much happier,
and life is so so much better,
however at the moment i'm distracted :P
so i'm going to continue talking to "pretty girl"
as we've been calling her tonight,
and smoke a cig :)