Revelations

Wow,
what else can i say,
this is,
so much of what i've always wanted,
she's sweet
reassuring,
loving,
beautiful,
cares just as much as i do,
things are always a surprise with me,
i want to see her again,
feel her arms around me,
her lips on my skin,
i cried when we said our goodbyes,
before even,
we both hide,
when we feel the same things,
we are so odd,
we will both dance around a subject until the other cracks,
asks about it only to find out we were thinking the same thing,
for the first time i found someone who is willing to do as much as i am,
i was thinking about moving down there,
to be with her,
after the season,
and when i approached the subject,
she said why would you and you roomate move down here when it would be so much easier for me to move up there,
i froze,
was utterly shocked,
never has someone wanted to do this for me.
for us heh,
she told me to think about it,
and i did,
this is what i want,
and i ask her,
she says this is what she wants,
she says it is,
how did i find this person,
how did i get this lucky,
we are shooting for mid december,
i hope she is able to,
there are complications as there always are,
but we've worked through everything so far.
i'm scared,
terrified,
but it's good,
it's healthy to be scared for me,
it shows that i really do care,
i really am afraid to get hurt,
but when i brought up being afraid that she would change her mind,
especially if more time than that passes,
and she said something that surprised me as always,
"have faith in me"
i have more faith in her than she knows.